Hahahahahahahaha! I am so proud of myself! Finally, I have completed the first draft of what I would consider a novel. As of yesterday, 3/7/19 I did what I wanted to do for the new year! I completed my novel! Is it still rough? Of course. Do I still want to polish it? Yes. But I did it! I wrote something that was other than a short story with a dynamic plot that has to span to another novel.

I know that if someone comes across this will have no clue why I’m so excited. So let me just briefly explain. I was never really encouraged to write. It was the one thing that I struggled with as a child. Everything I brought to the table was dissected and scrutinized until writing was never a joy for me. Yet, there was this drive to read and created. I could never really hold it in. So I wrote little blurbs of scenes floating inside my head and most of them had full length stories burning in my head, but I never felt motivated to write them.

Well, until about two years ago. While I was a courier, I had a ton of down time inside the van driving for eight to ten hours every day. Soooooo…. I had way too much thinking time and these worlds that I had created screamed to the surface demanding attention. They got so loud that finally I bought a notebook and started to write them down. Of course, it couldn’t had been content to fill up two notebooks, but it wanted to be typed as well. I was reluctant and slow, but it just burned.

It continued to nag at me until I stumbled across someone on Tumblr. I really admire how this woman portrayed characters as real life people and respected the growth of relationships so much. When I read that she had lost her greatest fan, her mother, to a sudden accident, I grabbed my social anxiety by the reigns and reached out to her. She was/is so warm and friendly that I became even more in awe of her. She inspired me to continue on something that I had no encouragement to complete. And today I did it!

Of course, there is another that is brewing in my mind and the companion to this story is cooking somewhere deep in my consciousness. But I think that is going to be my life now. With this achievement, I beginning to feel like that creative writing is okay to delve into, even when you aren’t too hot at it.