Been way too long. Really need to get back into this thing. Okay, so what’s on my mind today? Well, it’s July?

Gosh that’s horrible. Okay. Okay. Let’s try again. /deep breath in\ What’s on my mind? ….

Yep, nothing much. But isn’t that how it goes? You have this grandiose idea about how things should be and how they should land and you come up with nothing. The shoulds and woulds and coulds plague your mind in a thousand ways, more than even media could possible plague it. But there you are. Sitting on your bed, staring at the wall or ceiling or window and have thousands of images of what you should be, or would be, if XYZ didn’t happen.

And you know what? In the end, that means less than nothing. All those what ifs. All those I shoulds. All those I have toos. They all equal to nothing.

I guess that’s not quite right either. They don’t equal to nothing. What they can equal too is a great number of negatives. Low self-esteem. High anxiety. Massive amount of depression. Lack of confidence.

But, if you sit to think about that, even that equal to nothing. Hear me out. In order to have any of those problems, you have to have standards. Standards that you are not meeting. These standards, whatever they may be, are higher than what you believe that you can achieve. But! BUT! You have met them before. You have looked in a mirror and been proud of what you saw. The reason you don’t like what you see anymore is because it is no longer the same thing you saw before. You must have been thin, or smart, or witty, or plump, or talented, or….ect. ect.

Sit there and argue, but you know what I type is right. You might think, “but I’ve never been XYZ.” Ah! That is the standard I am speaking of. We could go thru them all, but I’m tired and want a nap, so let’s move this thought train on. Unless your doctor is concerned for you life and you refuse to help yourself/your body out by doing what is nessecary to move, you are not too fat. Unless you epically fail at breathing and walking at the same time and have to remind you eyes to blink, you are not stupid. Unless you have never crack a smile in your life, you are witty/funny. So on and so forth.

If you find yourself in the mirror downgrading yourself, face that demon. Look that demon in the eye and see what that demon sees. Then point out something different. Do you like your eyes? I think that human eyes are the prettiest things I have ever seen. They sparkle more than stars in the sky. They shine brighter than the sun. They have more diverse colors than all the shades on the earth. They express themselves better than words. I can promise you that your eyes are stunning. They are beautiful. They are worthy.

They are worth to see and be seen. They shine with a light that is so unique and special it takes a breath away. Do you like your eyes? Because I do.

Focus on that. Focus on the beauty that is your gaze. If you don’t like your eyes (my heart breaks, but I understand), then do you like your smile? Your laugh? Your hearing? Your feelings (this one is hard to do)? How about the sensation of touch? Taste? Sleep? Dreams? Friends? Family? Sunlight? Darkness? Cool air? Warm air? Blankets? Fans?

Find that one thing. One thing is all you need. And that one thing fills that void. It will fill what depression, anxiety, and fear take from you. Let it become your new standard of beauty. Of faith. Of hope.

Yep, and if that won’t do it for you, try a goal. It doesn’t have to be a goal of “saving all the dying kittens in the world!” Which sounds exhausting if I’m going to be perfectly honest. But it could be, smile at least once today. Take a shower. Touch something soft. Little things

The more little things you do and praise yourself for, the better. Did you replace the toilet roll right away? You did great! You pick up your clothes on the ground and put them in the washer? Fantastic! You went on a walk with your family dog? Be proud of that!

A thousand little things mean more than one great big thing. So you didn’t find the cure for cancer? Whatever, you took your medicine. You aren’t making over $50,000 a year like everyone else in your family? Can you afford a $2 burger every now and then? That’s good.

We made never change the entire world. But we can change OUR entire world by one little thing. A shower. A walk. A smile. A joke. That is all it take to change nothingness into somethingness.

And that something is worth thinking about. So, what’s on your mind today? Nothingness? Or did you find a little thing to fill the void for a moment in time?